Aftermath

Every little things I used to own now strewn all over the place, glass bowls broke into small pieces. Just like my heart – broken into many little pieces I don’t even know where to start rebuilding or how to start rebuilding.

Unnerving to see what had happened to you and I – we are now what was. The aftermath of a torrid love affair that consumed as both. I still catch myself looking at your side of the bed, I still almost always set a place for you on the dinner table. I still stop myself from breaking down and I know I will have to be patient with myself.

I really need to move-on but I do not know how. For now I will remain patient and will remain kind to myself.

Just sharing how it feels to be heartbroken. The aftermath of used to be a very exciting love affair.

Heavy Heart

As I walk away from the past

the dried up river banks 

and sunflower patches

I’m turning my back on your

scented leaves and perfumed skin

with a heavy heart I will keep going

away from the heated past

that turned to ashes as cold as winter snow

you never know

Many of us give our unsolicited advise to people when conversing with friends, coworkers, family members and even strangers we talk to at a check out stand at a local grocery stores. We say to them things like “go for it sign up for a cooking class, you never know you may meet your “Knight in a Shining Armor” . Some people also say things like, if I were you I will reconcile with my long lost friend… you never know when will be the   last time you are going to see them”…

Today I heard that one of my friends closest cousin passed away unexpectedly, and no matter how I try to wrap my brain around to understanding what happened to her, I also am grappling with the words ” you never know”.

From now on, I am going to start keeping in-touch with friends and family members from outer State, or even friends living forty miles away. I will make sure I talk or text with them, even once or twice a month. Because you never know…