It saddens me to look at you now

your dark side left you living in a cave

an empty shell of the former you I used to know.

Your eyes has this permanent glaze that refuses

to focus on people that cares about you deeply.

It hurts me that you haven’t spoken in years.

You sit there in silence, most of the time you

blend in with the wall.You are right there but

you are missing.

It breaks my heart that I wasn’t there to help you.

figure things out about your illness until it was too late.

I am so sorry, I do not know how else to get through you.

You seem very far away and was gone a long time ago even before

we recognized the symptoms.