Empty shell

It saddens me to look at you now

your dark side left you living in a cave

an empty shell of the former you I used to know.

Your eyes has this permanent glaze that refuses

to focus on people that cares about you deeply.

It hurts me that you haven’t spoken in years.

You sit there in silence, most of the time you

blend in with the wall.You are right there but

you are missing.

It breaks my heart that I wasn’t there to help you.

figure things out about your illness until it was too late.

I am so sorry, I do not know how else to get through you.

You seem very far away and was gone a long time ago even before

we recognized the symptoms.

If only it is easy to erase you from my mind just like deleting a word I typed on my laptop. If only I could turn back time and hold my words in my tongue before saying them.

If only I could see you again, talk to you, hold you in my arms one more time. If only…

Star

Keep shining, you are the best star one could ever have

You can be every little thing you want to be or the biggest

thing you ever wanted to be. Keep shining your light

upon yourself and upon others. Remember… you have a

strong body and a strong mind. Keep shining!

Somewhere deep in the foggy place in my heart… there you sprouted like a Spring in the middle of Winter.
-justme62

Often…

He said “lets play princess and pirates where princess are being rescued by pirates because they are helpless and vulnerable”. I hesitated for a little bit to wrap my brain around what he said… Does he really think women are helpless? Does he really think women are vulnerable…?

Oh Geez! is this guy a male chauvinist? I hope not…because I really like him and because I want to see him often.

I wish I could write more about you, about how you make me feel and how you made me feel. I wish I could say them to you in real time in real life. I wish.

I seek asylum from myself

often hiding behind my poetry.

Desperately holding on to

the jagged edge

of my fragmented heart.

Constantly finding the strength to write wholeheartedly without fear of exposing every corner of my heart. -justme62

Head over-heels

I feel like my heart will burst into flames every time you walk in the room, I need fresh air. Before I need to catch my breath. I am head over heels in-love with you. -justme62

Needy

I follow the direction of intricate lines on your skin

just like a blind person fumbling her way through crowded streets

trying to cross to the other side.

I stare at your eyes the color of deep blue sea.

With each penetrating glances, I wish I could read your mind.

See the wonderful light of your soul

I want touch the silent groove of lines on your palm and feel the jagged edge

of your thoughts that sends shivers on my spine.

You, sitting in a comfortable silence while I rummage frantically

in my head trying to get to know you on a deeper level

desperately desiring your undivided attention.

Rummaging frantically in my head…trying to get your attention. -justme62 photo by Dana Tentis pixabay

I can never let you go

holding your name upon my lips

my heart beats along the rhythm of your soul

my mind has never forgotten, how you made me

dance along the depths of my own symphony.

My body a prisoner of your melody

arching towards your magnetic pull swaying

with every stroke of your piano keys.

I can never let you go… I will sprout like

an unwanted weed in your backyard.

Stalking you, like an ivy climbing up your garden wall.

Like an unwanted weed in your backyard…-justme62